I sometimes wonder why I can’t get motivated.
I want to develop good rhythms when it comes to my mental, physical, and spiritual health. I set goals, learn strategies, and sometimes feel like I’m getting my groove on. Until I don’t. Just this morning I thought of ten productive things to do but couldn’t seem to will myself off the couch.
I’ve read books on why good physical habits are important. Daily moving of my body and limiting sugar are truths I know but I wonder if anyone else has been struggling with less movement and more cookies lately?
I know how critical thought life can be – taking thoughts captive and renewing my mind with truth. But sometimes I feel like I’m running on a mental hamster wheel recycling my thoughts over and over. It wears me out but doesn’t get me anywhere.
Spiritually, I want to grow – to have a greater sense of God’s Spirit who lives inside of me as a Christ-follower. I know that prayer and Bible reading and gathering with other believers are vital to the Christian life – so why don’t I crave them each day?
Yet here on the couch I sit… debating Netflix or Amazon Prime to scroll for something to entertain me or at least not require any effort from me.
I wish I could divorce my actions from my fickle feelings, but often my emotions seems to assume the driver’s seat of my decisions.
I sat for a few moments with the remote staring at me from the corner of my eye. I want to be a disciplined person, but what if…
It’s always a struggle.
I won’t ever follow habits perfectly.
But also what if…
It’s more about patterns than perfection.
I stop trying to control my feelings and just feel them.
In the midst of my internal war between pursuing the habits I know will get me closer to where I want to go and who I want to be and the escape of counterfeit comforts – I told God, “I need You so much.”
I sensed mercy from the Holy Spirit, and an invitation – “Come to Me.” A psalm I had read a few days before came to my mind when David said, “My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
Against my will, I whispered – “I am coming” like a reticent child. For me that looked liked opening the Scriptures to my daily Bible reading. I didn’t find anything earth shattering in the pages of Leviticus and Mark. But I did. renew my mind with solid truth. Then I journaled my complaints, lack of desire, and general frustration with my apathetic aura.
I’m not sure where in the process, but slowly something shifted in me. It wasn’t extreme happiness or a desire to complete the disciplines I know to be good for my body, mind, and soul.
But I found something else …. joy.
Just because He is here.
In my mess, my struggles, my doubts.
Just because He is near.
Even when I don’t feel it, I rest in the truth that He loves me. He loves you too. He sees me. He sees you too.
Christmas is all about that – God sending His Son to earth in human form. He came not to condemn us, but to save us.
Today He saved me from poor choices and gave me joy in the midst of my moodiness, brokenness, and difficulty.
If you are struggling like I was today, here is what I want to say to you about getting motivated – Start with Jesus.
Sit with Him. Tell Him your frustrations and doubts and struggles. Find Him in His Words of Truth through reading Scripture. Remind yourself of the listening ear He extends in prayer.
The author of the Bible Recap – Tara Leigh Cobble always says it this way – He is where the Joy is!
I found that to be true in real life struggles today…
I hadn’t written a blog for over 6 months until today. Getting motivated for me meant starting with Jesus. Have you done it yet? If not – sit down with your Bible and take some time to pray. Who knows what you might accomplish in His strength – under His direction.
Psalm 32:8-9, The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you. Do not be like a senseless horse or mule that needs a bit and bridle to keep it under control.”
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