I’ll never forget the day I found out I was expecting twins. It turned out to be only ten days before their arrival. My son was three years old at the time and struggling with severe asthma. The night before we discovered there were two babies kicking around in my belly, my husband and I both spent the night in the ER with our son who was working hard to breathe. I remember crying out to the Lord, “How am I going to take care of a baby when my son is so sick?” The very next day an ultrasound revealed two girls were on the way and I cried and laughed with God about my question to Him the night before. I knew I would need strength greater than my own.
I couldn’t help but think of this situation as I was studying Jeremiah 12 this week. Jeremiah has his own questions for God. “Lord, you always give me justice when I bring a case before you. So let me bring you this complaint: Why are the wicked so prosperous? Why are evil people so happy? You have planted them, and they have taken root and prospered. Your name is on their lips, but you are far from their hearts.” (1-2)
I asked God how I was going to take care of my babies and Jeremiah asked why hypocrites seem to prosper, yet God answered us both in similar ways. Verses 5-6 say, “If racing against mere men makes you tired, how will you race against horses? If you stumble and fall on open ground, what will you do in the thickets near the Jordan? Even your brothers, members of your own family, have turned against you. They plot and raise complaints against you. Do not trust them, no matter how pleasantly they speak.”
God responded to Jeremiah that if He was worried about the wicked prospering, He better make sure He was trusting in God because pretty soon his own brothers were going to stick a knife in his back. God wanted Jeremiah to realize he would need to fully rely on God. If he thought it was hard to race against humans, how would he ever run the race against horses? In other words, it’s only going to get harder, so be sure you are seeking supernatural help to get you through it!
When I found out I was going to be having twins and probably any day, I couldn’t turn anywhere but to God. I knew in my own strength I had nothing. Now that my twins are almost 12 years old, I see God’s hand in guiding me through that time. It wasn’t always easy racing against horses with two newborns and an asthmatic three year old. However, God showed up in huge ways through the body of Christ, some physical healing, and of course through His powerful Word to sustain me.
I still have many questions for God. I’m grateful like Jeremiah said, He always hears my complaints. He also reminds me not to try to fight my battles apart from Him. When the race kicks up a notch and I feel like I can’t go on, He reminds me to let go of my own strength and trust in His. The apostle Paul had learned the secret of racing against horses too. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 say, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
So today when I am overwhelmed and trampled by the horses I can’t keep up with, I need to remember to be weak in my own strength, so God’s power can work in me to win the race.